The Evacuation of Limbo Someone has probably already told you about the new decrees and old miscalculations, the redefined edges of things, the this, then this, then this, then this, then this, reaching no conclusion as to cause or effect and finding little of interest along the way: nothing to consider really and nothing to imagine or read about or learn. It was a circle of a place, beyond knowing, since almost all of what a circle is is outside it anyway. Beyond it spun another circle, the unhappy world of love and hot air. Something like a sky was left and under it the remains of a plain where…

Even the Dead   I called the number you gave me; No voice bothered to respond. It wouldn’t be the first time I tried contacting a kindred spirit, Who could care less for communication, Or me, if the truth be told. I seem to suffer, quite often, From a low grade personality— Disorder, so far over the border, My citizenship has been revoked On more than a few occasions. I take scores of assorted pills To keep me steady as sin, But always find myself flopping This way or the other, Without any wind at my back. Face it; I’m a hot mess and a half— Too frightfully cold to…

How it was Wake:             Feel full             weight of body.                           Feel pressure on my chest from           purring cats named Anxiety and Depression. Miss:           Being an early riser.                       Force myself                                 through morning routine           because that’s what moms do. Surge:           Temporarily feel something like           …

Early Morning Considerations after a Night of Rain There you are, first light freckles in the curtainswith dawn while the jay insists: It’s six. Six!It’s six — as if I don’t know that. Good morning, welcome, new Thursday. I arcthe blankets away. The dog sheds gladness allaround me as war news shrapnels out of NPR. Outside, everything is still gleam & green afterthe first rain in months, & petrichor — a word somepoets sequin into their pastorals — left in the wind. Petrichor! I imagine a starched table & gold candlesas erect-pinkied connoisseurs sniff a Zin & a guesthighbrows: I adore a good pertichor. It’s not in my vocabulary of…

The ways my life changed after the witch turned me into a bird First off, I can’t do math.Just can’t. I see one seed shellor more than one seed. I’m not sureif this is a bird thing or a me thing.I can’t smell, which is fine in this cage.But my memory is great, maybe even better. I miss: the scent of a thyme, garlic, butteron a seared steak (I avoid thinking of chicken,it’s conflicting). Sex and cupping breastswith warm hands. The happy buzzfrom half a cocktail before too many. What they don’t tell you (because they can’t)is that shitting is bliss.It makes up for all the above.I eat even when…

You Don’t Start Out wanting to write about pain, the pain lives near you, neighborly and you begin to rely on it as if it would almost always agree to feed your cats or take in the recycling can. Its curtains blow in a midnight breeze the way yours do. There exists a kind of empathy. And you’re lonely. You’re willing to turn toward anything to make a friend.    Jack’s Death At the end of the day what else is there to do but write a poem: the blue and white pillow case you wrapped his body in. The suddenness with which your friend stopped shoveling dirt over the…

  Summer Solstice Morning heats up like a topaz jewel. By noon the matchstick grasses look like beatengold if you squint against the June sheen. Once you touched the burning plexus, the naked fiery hive of tormented passion alive inside the body of another summer, and lived.    Instructions from My Double Snag the day’s plush,_____its seedy glitter, __________those morsels packed _____with juice. Sponge in flecks of goldfish _____shimmer. Filch __________cobwebs of dusk; _______________rummage __________the rain. Jasmine, tuberose, _____gardenias, snakes, asphalt, soot—_____poke your nose __________into their perfume. _____Buildings puffing fat smokestack cigs; _____tangerine fingernails, __________mango computer screens, _______________dreams. Scraps, rags, __________electric tubing, _____all mixed together with wire and pencils,_____with mayonnaise…

The Bastard Children of the Moon My mother loved the Man in the Moon.Nights, his bony light shined down to herFrom where he’d hungHalf-naked in the elms.She would read to us quickly,Snapping shutThe tall book she held half opened in her lap,His name on her lips.The words that rhymed are lost. My mother loved the Man in the Moon.Once we were put to bed,Their talking through the walls changed to laughter,Laughter changed to cries.I went to spy.I saw him waxing over her body.I saw her sink beyond the dark side of his thighs. My mother loved the Man in the Moon.He hit her hard.She fell to the earth.The kitchen floor…

“leviathan” an L.A. story my body hangs suspended under a skyscapeof smog-masked stars — dividedby the water of your infinity pooli float, blind to the edgenever knowing how close i am to fallingover. alexa plays that indieartist you discovered on bandcampwhile high on blueberry morning.you’d rather listen to him than me —he makes you culturedinteresting. the midnight breeze forces your scentinto me, flooding my airways with thesun-soaked citrus of a california boywith your tangled bun and nine o’clock shadow —you wear shades at night because they’re“prescription” — and everyone loves it.your attention is the currency you use torun your freckled nose along bare stomachsuntil it’s buried between thighs. we crave…

Last Will and Testament The valley floor subsides—my roots follow the sinking water table. I wish I could leave you morethan the soggy ashes of your birthplace, the birds all flown like grown children,silence as odd as almond blossoms and snow falling together today.I stood still for thirty years and the desert came to me,plums replaced by prickly pears— I leave you what’s left: sun on skin,the hug of gravity.   Beth Suter studied Environmental Science at U.C. Davis and has worked as a naturalist and teacher. A Pushcart Prize and Best of the Net nominee, her poems have appeared in Colorado Review, New American Writing, Barrow Street, DMQ Review,…